Better day - let's accomplish something before it's gone.

Well, I am having one of my few "better" days. I don't call them good days, because they really aren't. I still feel that things are still not well, but they are better than normal. So, better is the best way to describe them without over describing them.

My "better" day started yesterday evening. I cleaned, did laundry, dishes and even started some spring seeds. The creativity I use to have was sitting on the surface waiting for me. I had so much I wanted to do, but at the same time felt a clock ticking telling me to do it now or wait till your next lucky day... days month or maybe years away.

My kitchen was the victim... winner of my ticking time of energy/clarity. My kitchen counters shoke from the shock of the feeling of a sponge and cleaner on them. I almost had to talk them through what was about to happen, to keep them from possibly falling apart from the shock of the foreign-to-them idea of cleaning.

It was almost midnight and I started to feel small signs, of this hard to describe feeling I feel, of this is too much. So, I decided to stop and find my friend the couch. Shortly after I stopped I got this horrible I am going to be sick feeling. The fear of being sick and possibly throwing up sent me to my bed in hope that I could beat the feeling and sleep.

Thankfully, I did, somewhat. The sleeping part wasn't easy though. But, it did happen, eventually. I even woke up feeling almost like I did last night, but the stomach issue was still lurking quitly, so I didn't do what I felt I could do. Every time I got of the tummy was threatening me. Thank goodness for laptops!